Hi there. Marguerita here, and I just had to share with you one of the most incredible moments of my life that came just 2 days ago.
But first, a little background. If you have read my story on this blog, then you will know that my life has been a little ‘different’. I have tried many things and failed many times. And when I failed, I would pick myself up, brush myself off, make some changes to my method or direction and try again. This has not always been easy. In fact, there have been times when it has been incredibly emotionally distressing. To keep trying, creating some of the best opportunities possible, and then having them amount to nothing for seemingly no reason, was incredibly frustrating and at times soul destroying.
Don’t get me wrong. I have been very blessed in my life and don’t claim to have insurmountable odds to overcome in order to achieve great things. This has possibly been the most frustrating and confusing thing of all. To hear inspirational stories of people who have come from circumstances that are so difficult, even desperate, and have achieved things I would not dare to even dream of, would break my heart when I have been gifted with such fortunate circumstances and couldn’t make anything work. It was incredibly confusing.
Several years ago I read a book called “The Power of The Subconscious Mind” by Joseph Murphy and this was the beginning of my world in conscious creation. This developed over the years, to the point where I saw the movie “The Secret” which struck a deep chord within me. Inspite of the glaring omissions from this movie, I immediately understood its’ message and filled in the blanks from all that I had read over the previous few years and took my conscious creation to a new level.
I soon discovered some of the most powerful healing tools on the planet and met some very gifted healers who helped accelerate my healing journey. All the time I asked many questions, including “Why haven’t I been able to achieve my goals and realise my dreams?”. I kept asking these questions over and over wondering why I wasn’t hearing the answers!
My healing over the past year during 2007 has been incredibly powerful and accelerated (though often not fast enough as patience is not one of my strong points), and often very difficult. I have shifted so much subconscious negativity and faced a lot of buried pain. And, finally, two days ago, came the moment I had been seeking.
I was sitting with a cherished friend and colleague and we were discussing my gift for expending great amounts of energy and making my life more difficult than it needs to be. This is a conversation we have had a few times before. All that we talked about and she shared made so much sense, intellectually and emotionally. And yet, there was something missing, just as there always had been.
Then a thought struck me, that fact that the work we do as energy healers brings peoples pain to the surface. Though we do not cause the pain, we cannot, we are responsible for bringing it to their attention so they can repair the damage and heal. This is also causing and will continue to cause a great deal of upheaval and confusion within the world as the torment and pollution of the human mind is reflected by the human condition and mother nature. Collectively, the healers work rocks the foundations of the human spirit and consequently the world. This is necessary, but this is why I have continued to sabotage everything I have ever strived for.
Subconsciously I have been unwilling to admit that my work will cause people to acutely feel their pain and this was unacceptable to me. I want to heal peoples’ pain, not cause them to feel the depth of it. So, subconsciously I put the breaks on. I refused to allow myself to succeed if this is what it meant. I wanted no part of it. This realisation immediately bought a flood of tears. I finally heard the answer I had been seeking.
This understanding now means I can step into my truth fully, be who I truly am, and realise all my dreams. Do I want to witness the pain of others? Of course not! But I know that in realising the pain they have pushed deep inside that people can heal and become whole. How do I know this? Because this is what I have recently done.
I still have more work to do to continue my healing journey. I don’t think that will ever end during my life time. But I believe I have healed the worst of my pain. So, the 20th of December 2007 will forever be one of the most empowering moments in my life and I am so excited about my future. I now believe that there is nothing I cannot achieve. I hope my story inspires you to seek healing, follow your passion and realise your dreams.
Love,
Marguerita
